We are all here. Allison Elizabeth is perfect and weighed a wonderful 6 pounds 12 ounces! I have really bad carpel tunnel still so I will have to come back to finish. We came home yesterday.
Wednesday, March 26, 2014
Tuesday, March 18, 2014
38 weeks
Everything is set for Thursday. I am just trying to keep it together til then. I had my last checkup this morning. Mr shaved my legs again last night. I almost cried in the car thinking about another c-section. I was hoping they weren't as bad as I recall and James's was easier than peters but still. Six weeks of pain and two older children who want and need my attention. I'll have to stop think jog about it, since I can't avoid having one.
I'm getting my tubes tied. That is crazy. That is just shut up crazy. But I am not going to take a chance on getting pregnant at 42. I won't put my kids through another three months of this. I can't. It's not fair to them and I don't think I could handle the stress of another high risk pregnancy.
I'm getting my tubes tied. That is crazy. That is just shut up crazy. But I am not going to take a chance on getting pregnant at 42. I won't put my kids through another three months of this. I can't. It's not fair to them and I don't think I could handle the stress of another high risk pregnancy.
Saturday, March 15, 2014
Suck it carpel tunnel
My hand is numb but I am pressing on. Mr came to bed way late and woke me up and I could not fall back to sleep so I figured WHAT! TIME TO BLOG?!
James turned two on Wednesday. He is so sweet and gentle and loving. He adores his new doll which he calls Baby. Baby goes everywhere and has many diaper changes. We were not allowed to leave the other day because Baby was poop. HAHAA. So cute.
He is talking more and more now. Peter talked a bit sooner than James did but James is really coming along now and thank goodness because it will make it easier for all of us when the new baby is here. We are not anticipating the same level of jealousy that Peter had because James has never been alone and James is much less intense to begin with. He had a lovely birthday with an excessive amount of balloons and he helped Daddy make his cake since he loves to cook. We made a buttermilk cake with marscapone cream and strawberries.
Sir Peter will be four on Sunday! He is getting a train cake per request. He is also going on a train ride with Daddy and Jamie and his aunt and grandma. I'm staying home to save my energy for the rest of the day. The train ride would wipe me out. There will also be pin the tail on the donkey and balloons. A bit more involved than Jamie's birthday but Peter is older.
Next year we will have a big party for when they are three and five ( and one!) but small seemed advisable this year.
I have an appointment early this morning to get waxed so I don't look too awful in all the pictures I am guessing will get taken next week. I have to say that getting my eyebrows waxed right before James was born was one of the smartest things I did since it made me look a little less....major surgery new baby beat and more well groomed ad lip gloss and go.
We are also going for some last minute shopping today, I am getting a bunch of sweats at Le Mart du Wal and so is Mr for hanging around the house and getting barfed on. Once it warms up and I shrink a bit we'll go to Target for more in betweeny clothes til late summer and fall. I need a whole new wardrobe since I have been pregnant or nursing almost straight through since July of 09. Which is insane but there you go. I want to go cheap til I see what size I end up. At which point I will go slightly less cheap. ahhahha
Yesterday was a new low and the baby stretched and kicked at the same time so I threw up acid and peed at the SAME TIME. So that was nice. I am still in a lot of pain, I don't know why the hip pain is so bad, but getting up from laying down is atrocious and standing after sitting is also bad. And then too much standing and I get Braxton Hicks so basically I've no good way to be.
I feel so different this time. I feel guilty for not enjoying or documenting this pregnancy more, but I have been so punch drunk with everything. Something that is very different for me is that with Peter and James I did not allow myself to love them before they were born. I was too afraid, but I cannot seem to help it this time, even though this pregnancy has been much riskier. I am just holding on til they get the baby OUT. I would like you OUT baby because I feel like it's safer. SAFE IS GOOD. INSIDE IS LESS GOOD.
Ugh now my arm and my hand are numb.
I can't believe I am getting my tubes tied. I can't believe I NEED to get my tubes tied. That is crazy. I guess I will feel a little sad that having it done means no more babies ever. But seriously I would not be able to handle another high risk pregnancy. My nerves can't take it and I certainly would not do that to the children again. They have been so amazing. Even trapped in the house with me for 13 weeks with no driving or outside time, they have been so wonderful. But they have given up enough and I would never try this again and try light duty with three children to care for. It's too much for all of us. This time around was scarier than with Peter. Let me now pause and try and decide if laying on the couch for the third trimester alone and lonely and bored and worried was harder than what I am doing now. I think it was. YAY.
I am resigned to my third c-section. At least I know now that I need to take extra stuff to poop so I am not spending days trying to do that. I'll take the hardcore stuff right away. And I know that the spinal(?) makes me itch like crazy all night long so hopefully we can manage that better and I know that I will do too much too soon. Because how could I not? I don't know if I'll get them but I am going to ask for an extra week of drugs.
I made four dozen banana chocolate chip muffins and today am making a batch of lactation bars. Mr is making candied nuts and he did an enormous grocery shopping yesterday.
We successfully ( ok MR) got the new carseats in the car. They are rated five to one hundred pounds and can be used front and rear facing and after fifty pounds turn into a booster seat. It's amazing that we can fit three carseats in the back of a Honda Civic. THANK GOD. We do not need a car payment on top of everything else. We have two of the skinny ones and the Chicco we used for Peter and James is in there for the new baby. AH CAIN'T BELIEVE THEY ALL FIT. We told the boys they are racecar seats and racecar drivers don't eat or drink in the car. They have fallen for it. Our main concern after getting the seats into the car is that the boys might hurt the baby because they will all be in a row. However James in is the middle and he is gentler. So we instituted a no cups or food in the car rule to make sure the baby did not get any choking hazards offered to it or get beaned by a cup. They are Diono Radian R100 convertible carseats. We got a good price by choosing a discontinued color. They don't use the latch system which is crappy but they have amazing safety scores and hello we saved at least 13,000 not buying a car. THANK GOD. Oh THANK YOU. Seriously.
Once the baby can get turned around we'll buy another. We'd like to put off a new car for two years. At which point honk honk I know we will need a mini van but we can put it off for a while. I mean if money was no object hell YEAH I would have wanted a new car but ummm. No. I'd much rather have take out twice a week this year.
We upped our grocery budget too, now it's around 160 a week. I cannot believe how much we spend on groceries.
My bills are coming in from all the testing and procedures and stuff. We are up around 2 grand I think. yay.
Mr got a fantastic raise and we will get a small bump once we add another deduction. All in all we are feeling really happy about our finances. We still are not making as much as when I worked too, but we are making enough with money left over at the end of the month. So that is awesome.
The big question right now is when Peter will start school. Not only is it a big financial commitment but he will have to be driven. Mr can drop him off but I would have to get him and bring him home. That was not as big a deal when we thought it would be just Jamie at 2.5 but to haul a nursing baby on a nearly two hour round trip four days a week is not appealing. Daunting. Scary. Stupid? Pick one. We are going to wait and see. We both feel Peter is ready for something and that it is not fair to put off his needs indefinitely but we will be a family of five and everyone will just have to work together. Maybe a different class or two for a year? He was supposed to start swimming this winter but we could not because it was too much driving and lifting for me. We are going to have to see and think about it more.
James turned two on Wednesday. He is so sweet and gentle and loving. He adores his new doll which he calls Baby. Baby goes everywhere and has many diaper changes. We were not allowed to leave the other day because Baby was poop. HAHAA. So cute.
He is talking more and more now. Peter talked a bit sooner than James did but James is really coming along now and thank goodness because it will make it easier for all of us when the new baby is here. We are not anticipating the same level of jealousy that Peter had because James has never been alone and James is much less intense to begin with. He had a lovely birthday with an excessive amount of balloons and he helped Daddy make his cake since he loves to cook. We made a buttermilk cake with marscapone cream and strawberries.
Sir Peter will be four on Sunday! He is getting a train cake per request. He is also going on a train ride with Daddy and Jamie and his aunt and grandma. I'm staying home to save my energy for the rest of the day. The train ride would wipe me out. There will also be pin the tail on the donkey and balloons. A bit more involved than Jamie's birthday but Peter is older.
Next year we will have a big party for when they are three and five ( and one!) but small seemed advisable this year.
I have an appointment early this morning to get waxed so I don't look too awful in all the pictures I am guessing will get taken next week. I have to say that getting my eyebrows waxed right before James was born was one of the smartest things I did since it made me look a little less....major surgery new baby beat and more well groomed ad lip gloss and go.
We are also going for some last minute shopping today, I am getting a bunch of sweats at Le Mart du Wal and so is Mr for hanging around the house and getting barfed on. Once it warms up and I shrink a bit we'll go to Target for more in betweeny clothes til late summer and fall. I need a whole new wardrobe since I have been pregnant or nursing almost straight through since July of 09. Which is insane but there you go. I want to go cheap til I see what size I end up. At which point I will go slightly less cheap. ahhahha
Yesterday was a new low and the baby stretched and kicked at the same time so I threw up acid and peed at the SAME TIME. So that was nice. I am still in a lot of pain, I don't know why the hip pain is so bad, but getting up from laying down is atrocious and standing after sitting is also bad. And then too much standing and I get Braxton Hicks so basically I've no good way to be.
I feel so different this time. I feel guilty for not enjoying or documenting this pregnancy more, but I have been so punch drunk with everything. Something that is very different for me is that with Peter and James I did not allow myself to love them before they were born. I was too afraid, but I cannot seem to help it this time, even though this pregnancy has been much riskier. I am just holding on til they get the baby OUT. I would like you OUT baby because I feel like it's safer. SAFE IS GOOD. INSIDE IS LESS GOOD.
Ugh now my arm and my hand are numb.
I can't believe I am getting my tubes tied. I can't believe I NEED to get my tubes tied. That is crazy. I guess I will feel a little sad that having it done means no more babies ever. But seriously I would not be able to handle another high risk pregnancy. My nerves can't take it and I certainly would not do that to the children again. They have been so amazing. Even trapped in the house with me for 13 weeks with no driving or outside time, they have been so wonderful. But they have given up enough and I would never try this again and try light duty with three children to care for. It's too much for all of us. This time around was scarier than with Peter. Let me now pause and try and decide if laying on the couch for the third trimester alone and lonely and bored and worried was harder than what I am doing now. I think it was. YAY.
I am resigned to my third c-section. At least I know now that I need to take extra stuff to poop so I am not spending days trying to do that. I'll take the hardcore stuff right away. And I know that the spinal(?) makes me itch like crazy all night long so hopefully we can manage that better and I know that I will do too much too soon. Because how could I not? I don't know if I'll get them but I am going to ask for an extra week of drugs.
I made four dozen banana chocolate chip muffins and today am making a batch of lactation bars. Mr is making candied nuts and he did an enormous grocery shopping yesterday.
We successfully ( ok MR) got the new carseats in the car. They are rated five to one hundred pounds and can be used front and rear facing and after fifty pounds turn into a booster seat. It's amazing that we can fit three carseats in the back of a Honda Civic. THANK GOD. We do not need a car payment on top of everything else. We have two of the skinny ones and the Chicco we used for Peter and James is in there for the new baby. AH CAIN'T BELIEVE THEY ALL FIT. We told the boys they are racecar seats and racecar drivers don't eat or drink in the car. They have fallen for it. Our main concern after getting the seats into the car is that the boys might hurt the baby because they will all be in a row. However James in is the middle and he is gentler. So we instituted a no cups or food in the car rule to make sure the baby did not get any choking hazards offered to it or get beaned by a cup. They are Diono Radian R100 convertible carseats. We got a good price by choosing a discontinued color. They don't use the latch system which is crappy but they have amazing safety scores and hello we saved at least 13,000 not buying a car. THANK GOD. Oh THANK YOU. Seriously.
Once the baby can get turned around we'll buy another. We'd like to put off a new car for two years. At which point honk honk I know we will need a mini van but we can put it off for a while. I mean if money was no object hell YEAH I would have wanted a new car but ummm. No. I'd much rather have take out twice a week this year.
We upped our grocery budget too, now it's around 160 a week. I cannot believe how much we spend on groceries.
My bills are coming in from all the testing and procedures and stuff. We are up around 2 grand I think. yay.
Mr got a fantastic raise and we will get a small bump once we add another deduction. All in all we are feeling really happy about our finances. We still are not making as much as when I worked too, but we are making enough with money left over at the end of the month. So that is awesome.
The big question right now is when Peter will start school. Not only is it a big financial commitment but he will have to be driven. Mr can drop him off but I would have to get him and bring him home. That was not as big a deal when we thought it would be just Jamie at 2.5 but to haul a nursing baby on a nearly two hour round trip four days a week is not appealing. Daunting. Scary. Stupid? Pick one. We are going to wait and see. We both feel Peter is ready for something and that it is not fair to put off his needs indefinitely but we will be a family of five and everyone will just have to work together. Maybe a different class or two for a year? He was supposed to start swimming this winter but we could not because it was too much driving and lifting for me. We are going to have to see and think about it more.
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
37 weeks
I am on my stupid iPhone and am still having carpel tunnel problems so this is short.
We did great at the drs today! Baby had a growth spurt and instead of being in the 7th% is now in the 14th%! My fluid is great and so was my non stress test and the Doppler biophysical profile . The baby is now also proportionate! The MFM dr said it is really rare for them to do this well but they are so pleased that I was able to cancel my last two appointments! Right now the baby is looking around 5 and some pounds and should gain a pound in the next ten days. So small but totally acceptable. We are so relieved.
My last OB appointment is Tuesday morning and my c-section is scheduled for next Thursday.
I can't believe we've made it.
I am so happy. There is a chance the baby could still have a stay in the nicu , because of the c-section at 38 weeks but compared to all the things that almost went wrong, I am not too concerned.
We are doing it at 38 weeks because with James my OB said that I was too thinned out and if we had another she wouldn't let me go any farther . We talked about it some today and we both agree that the smaller risk of breathing problems is better than the larger risk of abruption.
I am having a lot of swelling, more than I did before. Mr was so horrified by my legs today that he has me on the couch with my feet up. I am having a lot of problems with hip pain and carpel tunnel and exhaustion but they are so small compared to the giant worry I don't have any more.
We did great at the drs today! Baby had a growth spurt and instead of being in the 7th% is now in the 14th%! My fluid is great and so was my non stress test and the Doppler biophysical profile . The baby is now also proportionate! The MFM dr said it is really rare for them to do this well but they are so pleased that I was able to cancel my last two appointments! Right now the baby is looking around 5 and some pounds and should gain a pound in the next ten days. So small but totally acceptable. We are so relieved.
My last OB appointment is Tuesday morning and my c-section is scheduled for next Thursday.
I can't believe we've made it.
I am so happy. There is a chance the baby could still have a stay in the nicu , because of the c-section at 38 weeks but compared to all the things that almost went wrong, I am not too concerned.
We are doing it at 38 weeks because with James my OB said that I was too thinned out and if we had another she wouldn't let me go any farther . We talked about it some today and we both agree that the smaller risk of breathing problems is better than the larger risk of abruption.
I am having a lot of swelling, more than I did before. Mr was so horrified by my legs today that he has me on the couch with my feet up. I am having a lot of problems with hip pain and carpel tunnel and exhaustion but they are so small compared to the giant worry I don't have any more.
Tuesday, March 4, 2014
36 weeks
Mostly the big news is that my due date was changed again. I think this is the fourth or fifth time. The baby is doing well and I am beat. Swollen feet, carpel tunnel, and insomnia. The baby is back to moving more so that is good.
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